Life like a CD player

"Life" yeh toh ji badi complicated hoti hai .... I mean hum har waqt kuch na kuch sochte hain, kabhi kisi ke milte hain ... kuch nayi yaadein banatey hain .. kuch purani baatein yaad karte hain... kisi ki yaadon mein khud ko bhool jaate hain ... aur kabhi kisi ki yaadein bhula dete hain... 

LIFE bhi kitni complex hai aur hum bhi .... am living with myself for almost 19years till now... but i still can't make out how will i react if so and so were to happen !

I fall in love- terribly fall apart from the concept of it... still i found myself smiling aimlessly at nothing ... kaash life bhi CD player ki tarah hoti.... like jo Past se pasand nahin ... erase it .. forget all .. and kuch moments hoti hain na .. in which we wish to live frever ... life ko wahin pause kar do ... sab kuch wuld be just like a fairy tale .... 

But if it were to be true.... toh shayad I could never be the person I am...  I am proud to be me... And though "Life like a CD player" is tempting still I'd like to struggle with it .. for every single day of my life.. just to be "ME"

Kaayi khwaab bikhre hain

faarsh pe kuch yun

ki asmaan se unhe milane ki 

abhi umeed bhi baaki nahin

adhera bhi itna gehra hai

 ki agey chalne se darr lagta hai

pairon ke neeche na kuchal dun 

apna armaan koi

nazuk hai dor bhi

par koshish ek aur kar lun

bohot ho gaya zindagi se shikwa

ab dil bhi kahe- chalo, dosti kar lun!

Aisa hota, waisa hota

kya hota agar aisa hota?

bohot ho chuke sawal

chalo mil kar koi jawaab dhund lun... 

bohot bikhar gaye hain sapney 

chalo inhe samet lun ...